The Spirit of Ma’at Vol 1, No 10         

 

Indigo Angels in Public School

A Mother's Wake-Up Call

by Dorene Graham

 

This article first appeared in Oracle2000 under the title of ''Education for the Children of the New Millennium.'' It is reprinted here with the author's permission.

 

I grew up thriving in the public school system. It never occurred to me to question this path for my children, until my oldest daughter, Jessie, reached the fifth grade. She had been struggling through school, and had fallen into an alarming depression. I took her to counseling, and since she had gone through similar counseling at an earlier age, she was diagnosed with clinical depression. I don't know if I can describe her at that point, but I felt as though some cold stranger had taken over my daughter. The things she talked about wanting to do, the harm she saw herself capable of inflicting on others, and her total lack of emotion sent dread crawling through me.

 

Her counselor referred us to a psychiatrist who prescribed Zoloft, an antidepressant. I was frightened. Jessie seemed lost and capable of carrying out the atrocities she spoke of. For two weeks I forced those pills on her, while she became colder and more withdrawn. We went back to the psychiatrist and she shocked him, telling him of the things she thought of doing. I cried through the session. He sent her to the waiting room, his eyes wide with shock. He increased her dosage and said if she didn't take the pills our only alternative was to commit her.

 

I waited for the prescription, crying in front of my daughter and all the people in the waiting room. I can't express the depth of my despair at that point. I couldn't stop the tears. I had kept up a strong front, but it came crashing down that day. My tears impacted Jessie more than anything I could have said, though, and her attitude softened. Later I learned she'd been hiding the pills under her tongue and pretending to swallow. I knew then that I couldn't drug my child.

 

Instead, we talked. She felt more comfortable talking to me than to her counselor, and though she continued counseling, we spent as much time as she needed one on one. I'd call in the angels and draw light around us. Talking out her thoughts kept her from acting on them, at least the most extreme ones. So as difficult as it was to hear, I listened night after night. Often our talks took on a spiritual aspect. Slowly, I got my daughter back.

 

In spite of all these difficulties, she remained in public school. Each day she seemed to die a little, yet I continued to send her, like a good mother. She asked me to homeschool her, but the concept was so foreign to me that I took a year researching, while she grew more and more desperate.

 

By the time she started the sixth grade, her distress reached the point where I couldn't stall any longer. I withdrew her. My heart pounded, like I was doing something wrong, or dangerous. I had been so brainwashed by the system that I believed strangers more capable of educating my child. I had so readily given up one of the biggest responsibilities of my life, that I felt guilty reclaiming it.

 

I learned of various methods of homeschooling, including unschooling, a form of child-directed learning that allows the child's interests to determine areas of study. The idea intrigued me, but again it was so foreign that I dismissed it. I withdrew my middle daughter after winter break, and for two years we did ''school at home.''

 

Though the stress level in our household dropped drastically, Jessie remained unhappy. She had difficulty learning her lessons, and labeled herself ADD, encouraging me to take her in for testing. She thought if she was diagnosed, she could be ''fixed,'' but I opted against the testing. I told her she wasn't the problem. We just had to find a different way to teach her.

 

Two things happened then that changed our lives. First, I discovered The Open Mind: Exploring 6 Patterns of Natural Intelligence by Dawna Markova, PhD. Per Dr. Markova's model we're all intelligent in different ways. I had known for some time that Jessie was a kinesthetic learner. She learns best by doing. The Open Mind helped me understand that her brain is wired so that for her to trigger the beta waves that allow her to focus and concentrate, she has to do so through movement.

 

All those times when she sat on our love seat, rocking the potted plant beside her, driving me mad with frustration, she was trying to concentrate as I practiced what Dr. Markova calls ''educational bulimia.'' Just as in public school, I stuffed information into Jessie, so she could regurgitate it onto her tests. Because she never assimilated the information, she'd forget it shortly afterward. No true learning took place. How wrong I'd been to be angered by her plant rocking. We had found a basis for teaching her.

 

The second event occurred when I took her to see Kimberly Cahill, an energetic healer. There Jessie found the diagnosis she'd been seeking, a label for her ''condition.'' Ms. Cahill believed her to be an Indigo Child. Also known as the Millennium Children, Indigos range in general from age zero to twenty-two, with some older adult forerunners. These children display a new pattern of behavior believed to be evolutionary in nature. Nancy Ann Tappe was the first to identify and write about them in her book, Understanding Your Life Color. She began seeing the indigo life color in children's auras sometime in the '70s.

 

Extremely creative and energetic, according to Doreen Virtue, PhD, Indigos have a high sensitivity that if not handled appropriately can result in either the child's becoming introverted and isolated, or having attention and aggression issues. Dishonesty and lack of integrity trigger a sense of indignation in them. Dr. Virtue sees this as a positive characteristic that can go very wrong. She points to Columbine as an example of this, echoing Nancy Ann Tappe's belief that the children involved with this and other such tragedies were Indigos who were negatively influenced by their environment. Dr. Virtue advises parents to open the topic of spirituality with these kids to avert the negative behavior.

 

Not only Jessie, but also my youngest daughter, Lindsey, displays many of the Indigo traits. They have difficulty with authority if given without explanation or choice. Jessie gets frustrated with ritual-oriented systems that don't require creative thought. Both are nonconforming, always finding their own way of doing things. Jessie is antisocial when not around her kind. Both know when people aren't honest with them, and won't respect these people. Lindsey is sensitive to the energies of others and highly emotional. She feels bad, sometimes physically ill, with strangers. If she's upset or agitated, she'll likely vomit. I work with her on zipping up her chakras and shielding before we go into public places.

 

Many of the Indigos have developed psychic skills and are gifted in some way. A large number of them are labeled ADD and ADHD. Robert Gerard, PhD, believes this is because Indigos relate to the world in a nonlinear way, another valuable characteristic. Almost all whom I have come in contact with are kinesthetic learners. I believe they are labeled learning disabled because they have difficulty adapting to a visually-oriented school system. Not all children with ADD or ADHD are Indigos, and not all Indigos carry this diagnosis. If your ADD/ADHD child can remain focused on a project or activity for prolonged periods once his/her interest is involved, then this child is likely an Indigo.

 

These kids are here to usher in a new age, and they're showing us in the most drastic of ways that the old energies aren't working. School reform that stresses longer hours and an intensified curriculum does not serve them. More is not better. It's time for a different approach.

 

The Millennium Children, as well as all children, need a learning environment where they can follow their interests, where they are respected and respect in turn, and where education is more about self-fulfillment than the transfer of standardized information. These kids need to be taught about spiritual matters. Many of the Indigos, especially the younger ones, come into this world with their agendas intact. They know why they're here and won't waste time on anything not in line with that purpose. If we honor them for who they are, they'll surely lead us into an age of enlightenment. It's time we do our part for them.

 

Resources:

1. The Open Mind: Exploring 6 Patterns of Natural Intelligence by Dawna Markova, PhD

2. How Your Child is Smart by Dawna Markova, PhD, and Anne R. Powell

3. The Indigo Children by Lee Carroll and Jan Tober, indigochild.com

4. Indigo Angels: Helping Our Kids Cope in Today's World, interview with Dr. Doreen Virtue by Diane M. Cooper in the October Spirit of Ma'at

5. Parenting ADD/ADHD and Indigo Children, by Vikki Lawrence

6. For a wonderful site, full of information on giftedness and Indigos: metagifted.org.

 

Dorene Graham is the founding president of Indigo Village, Inc., a nonprofit corporation forming a holistic school and summer camp program dedicated to the needs of the Indigo Children and all the children of the New Millennium. For more information, please call 770-643-1441, or email dorenegraham@mindspring.com.